Dear LIB readers: Please help a disturbed woman

From a female LIB reader. Please read below...

I met my husband in 2011, January to be precise and I fell in love with him almost immediately. I loved his company so much that I had to let my guard down to be with him. Even when I realised he is not one to beg women because he has this belief that he can get any woman he wants because he is good looking so and FYI he loves women and has loads of them at his beck and call. I later got to realize that is his way of enjoying life any other thing like vacation is just by the way

Anyways,  I stuck with him and in 2013 we got married,  I felt on top of the world. I had to stop working because of where his new job took him to and till today I have not gotten a job. We had our fights but I was determined to make my marriage work and became submissive in ways i never imagined. Most times i go on my knees to beg him even when he is at fault just so that there is peace in my home

Hmmm,  last year I had this illness and realised I am HIV positive,  he took the test too and it came out positive. But he was very calm about it that we would be there for each other and I was impressed, we started our ARV drugs and we have been fine,  our Cd4 count is rising and I am grateful to God for life although i wish I could talk to someone cos I sometimes ask God were I went wrong in life or what I did wrong.

Fast forward to this year I suspected  he was cheating on me,  I got so mad and confronted him but he denied it and instead he found a way to turn the table around and we didn't talk for the 2 days,  i am not one to keep grudges for long so I asked him to forgive me for not trusting him.

Well today I confirmed my suspicions I was playing game with his phone when a message entered from his friend asking how Thursday went, if he saw condoms at his place... The funny thing is we had prayer sessions  that week for divine healing in church.

And I ask myself how would God hear our prayers? How do I get my life back? I finally had this business idea last month too but I can't concentrate again I feel like I have lost everything I worked for and believed in. I don't know what to do...., I am so angry,  I wish my life is over